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happyfingers
10 May 2012 @ 01:00 am
relationships are so time consuming.
is it worth it in the end?

my friend asked if trusted anyone. 
i answered no. 
i don't trust anyone with all my heart, it's my way of preserving myself, because if i lose someone atleast i have myself.

i prioritize my studies. 
so where do r/s' come?
where does friendship come in?

the more friends i lose, the less humane i think i am. 
people talk about belonging somewhere, and being at home. 
but where do i belong? where is my home?
has it got anything to do with trusting people? and sincerely loving people? 
i don't think i've ever truly loved anyone before, ever felt at home, ever felt like i found my place on this big, ugly planet. 

it's sad. 
i'm skipping physics tomorrow morning, because my friend is avoiding me, i won't let my education suffer due to my friend though, i have a life ahead of me, it's just a sad fact that i have to walk it all alone. 
happiness is shared.
but in my tiny world, happiness is only ever a distant dream.